Mum: I'm sorry that I lied. Sometimes I hope I can share all my problems with you and not get any MORE restrictions from you. I think you are a great woman, but in terms of handling me, you're not really understanding. I'm not blaming you for controlling me at all. That is because I have out grown it, plus I know exactly the reasons for it. I betrayed your trust over and over again. It's my wrong the first time round. But sometimes I just want to tell you to chill, because I know what I'm doing. I feel that if you were to let me free, just a little bit, I won't be so rebellious. But it is also because of your restrictions, I am who I am today. And I'm happy with it. I just hope you understand that I don't do all those things to hurt you at all. You are my mother, you brought me up, dealt with all my weird problems and crazyness and still love me. And I do love you back.

And I have a feeling all these is planned. Like what Michy said, I don't have to worry about making that decision anymore. And everytime I fight with Mum, I see everything in another light.
3:36 PM

I hate this I hate this I fucking hate this. I feel like a complete bitch right now, you know. Seriously. I miss Ang Jian Dong so much and I don't know how the fuck to deal with it. I just feel like I'm kinda losing it. I can't dream about him anymore, I can't feel him anymore. I know this sounds kinda sick, but I just feel empty. I can't think about him, because everytime I think about him, I know he's not going to appear right in front of me. I have nothing to look forward to. FUCK THIS I HAVE FUCKING NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO.

Shit. Imma bitch.
9:38 PM

YO PEOPLE! I've moved! :D

www.shapesofthe-dark.tumblr.com

It's kinda under construction, but still it's much better then BLOGGER!

Love you peopleeeeeeee :D
9:14 PM

What now?

I'm fine enough, I don't want drama.
6:24 PM

Watched UP with Mum, Sis, Bro and Shun Lian LS. The show is super cute, omg! How I wish we were all cartoon, then we won't have pimples and don't have to change everyday HAHA Yes, same as Andrea, I cried like a baby for the first 10 minutes of the show because the old man's wife died. Damn, it's super sad and throughout the movie you can see how much the old man loves and misses his wife. It's sweet and touching alright. :) I give it a 10/10 for sure! GO WATCH IT EVERYBODY!

Anyways, about yesterday, I have only one word: DRAMA.

I would say, crazy eventful and once again, drama-filled day. The food at Cineleisure was really good though, good recommendation Michy! I saw everything yesterday and it's like i feel super glad and comforted that everyone knows what they're doing. Like, I know who's got my back and who's always there and never doubting the things I do. Thanks to you-know-whos and oh well, it's over. Just learn from mistakes and we have many more Fridays to come! So bring it on!
HEH
(Thanks for the message this morning Michy)

I know I haven't been at home and when I am, Imma grumpy bitch. NOT GOOD. So, time to change and be good, at least for the next few weeks HEH

Gonna go study for the rest of the day and think of that privacy boy in Indonesia~ :D
1:20 PM

Auntie is loved <333
10:28 AM

This is my life in school, now. LOVES IT! :D

Projects are finally officially totally OVER and it's left with mugging for exams. Kat and I are destructive together, HAHA

Love my privacy boyyyyyyyyyy~






1:22 PM