Mum: I'm sorry that I lied. Sometimes I hope I can share all my problems with you and not get any MORE restrictions from you. I think you are a great woman, but in terms of handling me, you're not really understanding. I'm not blaming you for controlling me at all. That is because I have out grown it, plus I know exactly the reasons for it. I betrayed your trust over and over again. It's my wrong the first time round. But sometimes I just want to tell you to chill, because I know what I'm doing. I feel that if you were to let me free, just a little bit, I won't be so rebellious. But it is also because of your restrictions, I am who I am today. And I'm happy with it. I just hope you understand that I don't do all those things to hurt you at all. You are my mother, you brought me up, dealt with all my weird problems and crazyness and still love me. And I do love you back.

And I have a feeling all these is planned. Like what Michy said, I don't have to worry about making that decision anymore. And everytime I fight with Mum, I see everything in another light.
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